It was a delicious ice cream cake and I love that the white chocolate tablet for my greeting and my name chipped. It says a lot about me. My life wasn't perfect, it was rocky, dark at times (thankful to be alive considering some of the dumb shit I've done) but I don't have any regrets. I also cannot judge anyone because that would make me the biggest hypocrite! I look back at being 21, 23, 25 and laugh. It was fun, crazy and I was thin but honestly, I'm totally fine putting that past behind me. The thin part however, I still miss that aspect...a little.
I had plans today of just doing my own thing or as I like to call 'Day of Lex' - you know running around the lake, pedicures/massage, fragrance shopping with friends...you know small stuff. But as luck would have it, my daughter was stricken with a cold (that she caught from yours truly) and she had to stay home with me. My mother was at work and my husband couldn't work from home and I couldn't ask him to do that. This was the one day that my selfishness was truly acceptable - not even a question and I couldn't even partake in it. Eventually I got over it by thinking about how far I've come just this year and with Gabi laying in bed next to me, I could just lay there, go back to sleep or do something I haven't done in a long time - read a magazine!
I think the biggest accomplishment I've had this year was proving to myself and other of how strong I can be by doing this:
My new motto of "If you are always comfortable you will never grow" even carried on at work. I've become more daring by taking on projects. I am still taking baby steps because I'm terrified of failing but I need to do that to get to the next level.
I am currently training for a 3mile obstacle course, Dirty Girl Mud Run - benefits go to Breast Cancer research. I am hoping to drop a few pounds along the way, right before trying to add on to my family. It's been a discussion but we'll see if it happens this year. I'm not going to force the situation but I will say goodbye to my IUD sometime this winter and let fate decide what happens next. The truth is you'll never have everything mapped out when planning a family. We didn't when I got pregnant with Gabi and we're doing fine...broke and tired but we're good!
I guess what I'm hoping 38 brings me is just continued happiness with friends and family. I am hoping good things come my way on the job front. I've outgrown my admin role and I'm hoping that my ass busting work get recognized and gets me that promotion I've been blatantly hinting about to my bosses. I'm also going to to continuously challenge myself because being safe and practical can also get boring.
I am also not giving up on the possibility of doing freelance makeup work - here I am working my third stint this year as a makeup artist for my theater group:
Actually, I'm really excited to see what this year brings me. However, I am still learning to accept that I'm only two short years away from entering a new age bracket.
Well at least I have this to keep me calm and smelling good this year:
Me and my shopping buddy:
With this one by my side, I'm ready for any challenge!
It also doesn't hurt to have awesome siblings to have your back: